A Small Corner

I always wondered what it would be like to be a mom…growing a baby in my belly…giving birth…and then being responsible for such a tiny little life. I often thought it would never happen to me…I just couldn’t imagine it…Me…a mom?  In the year 2008, I finally experienced all the wonder and joy of being pregnant and giving birth to not one but two beautiful babies. I’ll never understand why God would choose me to raise two babies, let alone one. Now, I can’t imagine my life without my two handsome boys. They bring a smile to my face everyday. I constantly look forward to their next developmental milestones. Each time they accomplish something new, like grabbing a toy for the first time, it brings me so much joy. Each time they smile or try to talk, I don’t want to put them down. I could spend hours just staring at them, making silly faces, trying to make them smile and laugh. I’m sure every parent knows just what I mean.  They’re so different and so wonderful in their own ways.

I’ve had to come up with several creative ways to feed and pacify two babies at once. It’s not so difficult once you get the hang of it. Nighttime feedings (at 4:00 in the morning) consist of me, two boppies, two babies, two bibs, two bottles, and the floor. If they both wake up hungry, it’s quite a challenge to get them all diaper changed and ready to feed as they’re both wailing at the top of their lungs, but the moment the bottles touch down, silence fills the room. 

Daytime feedings used to look like this before they got too big to fit on my lap at the same time:

New Fears and New Faith

The thought of ever losing either of my boys brings tears to my eyes. I want to do everything in my power to protect them and keep them safe. But at the same time, I know there are so many things that are out of my control, which became very evident when Nolan was in the hospital. All a parent can do is pray and trust God to hold that child when we can’t. God has been so faithful. Everyday is a blessing. Both my boys are perfect to me. God doesn’t make mistakes. Everything he allows to happen has a purpose. He has a purpose for each and every one of us. The following verse came to mind as I was in the waiting room while Nolan was undergoing heart surgery:

John 9:1-3

As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.”

The mighty work of God was definitely displayed in Nolan’s life. So many people prayed for him; people we didn’t even know. God healed him through the skilled hands of gifted surgeons. Nolan is a miracle and I will make sure that everyone knows it. I know God has a plan for my boys. I’m going to keep praying for them everyday that God will raise them up to be men of God. I also pray that He will give me the strength, patience, and wisdom to guide my boys in the ways of the Lord.